The How and Why of It

.…but we invariably find that at some time in the past we have made decisions based on self which later placed us in a position to be hurt.

~AABB, page 62

When I read this passage a few weeks ago, it hit me like a ton of bricks. It’s a very sobering and humbling experience to realize that I had a hand in the pain I perceive others inflicting on me. However, I can see it clear as water. As tough as this is to swallow, I am very grateful for this awareness because it is helping me to cope.

This has been a pretty rough week for me emotionally and spiritually. I go from anger to sadness and from sadness to anger. In between those moments, I experience such peace of mind and acceptance. Despite the pain I have inflicted on myself, I shall live and not die!