Fear of Success

Well, today I am working on Day 260 of abstinence. Earlier this week my sponsor asked me to take a look at the calendar because she thought I had reached nine months. Knowing this is making me a little anxious. I am doing my best to stay present.

This morning I shared at the meeting (and later with my sponsor) how I have a fear, not only of failure, but of success. I remember how my sponsor always advises me to focus on the effort, not the outcome. So, for today, I will only focus only on today. Day 260 is no different than Day 1 of my abstinent. I will work my program to the best of my ability and leave the rest to my Higher Power.