It feels great to begin the year abstinent. I reached 90 days of abstinence on 12/30/10. As much as I am happy and grateful, I’m so anxious. I just sent my sponsor a text that I’m thinking about quitting or relapsing just to get rid of this feeling. It reminds me of something I read that said COEs, like other addicts, always wanting instant results and solutions to their problems. Only someone sick would or could make abstinence a problem.
I'm doing so well. I want to continue on this path yet there is fear. Yes. I am experiencing fear of success and fear of failure at the same time. I just need to stop thinking about it and live one moment at a time.
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